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Stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it

应该是
我不该问
不该让你再将往事重提
只是心中枷锁
该如何才能解脱

please wake up, we're into act 3

hello again, i decided to post something here since i don't want the poor blog to hog space in the great big www and collect dustballs. i cannot believe that we've bade our 16 year profession as students farewell already. no more discounts or afternoon specials! but beyond that, we're changing in many more ways; some people now find themselves too old to club, some realise that they're dating the wrong people, some already want out of something that they barely warmed the seats of. i see my friends changing and am slightly perturbed that i don't sense anything different in me. perhaps i'm coasting along and unaware of what i want; if so, that is most tragic. yet, i'm not unhappy per se, life is alright this way (though of course i'd much rather still be young and carefree forever). maybe i'm just easily contented and highly adaptable. haha, that's a nice way of putting it.

  // ho chi minh 5 - 7 dec 2009 // lovely restaurant interior // mandatory tour of the cu chi tunnels // motorcycle gang // the ubiquitous vietnamese spring rolls //

 

Think of me

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .

Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you . . .

Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me!

Phantom of the Opera --- Think of Me

from my favourite musical.
in case you were wondering, the singer is familiar because she has abandoned her pride to participate in that shitty dragonball movie recently. travesty.

Anywayyyy the point is, a chapter is about to come to a close. walking around school and seeing the multitude of "law admissions interviews at eu tong sen building" signs plastered around today made reality hit home all at once. a new batch is coming in, and i won't be around to mock at how flustered they are over LAWR, bitch abt how irritating and know-it-all they are, comment on the good bad and uglies of the batch etc. because this batch is taking over mine. the dean is right, every year marks the end of a 4 year cycle and mine is about to come to an end.

i still think i left my heart in KR campus, in pgp, along the corridors of our beloved old law fac campus. constantly i get flashbacks of the brown tiled floor and wooden tables of the empty space near the old student counter. i'm not sure why i recall such a nondescript location; maybe the times spent preparing for moots and lawr, and for law camps and passing through to get to the biz canteen have made a more lasting impression on me than i realise.

biz canteen... the pgp girls (hah yes the habitual latecomers who colonised the back row of the LT) would eat together after lectures, and tg8 (what a vibrant bunch we were) would share breakfasts after morning tutorials. i'd eat the overly sweet mango sago dessert, or the pomelo salad from the pseudo vietnamese stall. the guys would go crazy over "next please" sausages and western food.

pgp. i think i've reminisced ad nauseum about it already. but there, i found friends, experienced freedom and independence, shared fun, shed tears, grown up. to whom it may concern, remember remember, that night in december, april, may and baileys+soyabean.

Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me.

More about contemplation, life and musings

the coffee from booth X at the careers fair today is working wonders for me at this small hour of the morning. well done coffee bean! anyway, law careers fair today was not a disappointment there was complimentary food to be had --> money to be saved + happiness to be eating sth other than canteen food. it was rather saddening that we were discriminated against because of our age; we were denied gifts because we're year 4. do not discriminate! treat older workers equally! :p that aside, this is my last careers fair and next year, i'll be the one at the booth (hopefully) trying to convince kids that the office where I'm sweating blood at is fun and merry land. such a sobering thought and once again, i sigh for my age.

i do not take well to gambles that turn out badly on hindsight. yes i know hindsight is 20-20 and that there's no point crying over spilt milk, but i just feel such a sense of waste and wahlao-ness when something better subsequently comes along. a few weeks ago, we thought that our $1.4k flight to San Fran on NWA was a great deal, and based on the knowledge we had then, it really was a good $500 or so cheaper than the average flight. but today, there's some pre natas promo on cathay for just $1.1k. arggg cathay service and flights are so much better! i would feel some pain if the flight was also $1.4k too, much less even cheaper. sigh, i shall fly vicariously through Adr who will be taking that flight 2 hours later than us. but if life were an open book and u knew the ending before it came, any decision wouldn't really be a choice then would it? would you rather be satisfied with every decision you make, or choose to live for the day and relish the rights and celebrate the wrongs? somehow, i might actually want to read the story of my life.

bunnyears

flavour of the week

flavour of the week :: last week

it suddenly struck me that it's highly amusing that i'm blogging about bunnies in a class by someone called Hop. no shit, really, Hop. i've been sitting in lectures since 4.30 so i think i'm justified in being braindead and not following anymore. this class part nonsense is bringing out the worst in people; the bad ideas are all coming out to play just so that these ppl can claim "don't say i never say". omg. my last semester in law school is ending with a string of crappy modules. how grand.

sadly, the xmas- new year- chinese new year festive season has come to a close already. i'm feeling quite tired of after the first month of school already, possibly because it got off to a bad start with the add drop dramatics. february's gonna be a month of nightly intensives (yes, i'm a student of the night; coming to school as people start to head home) and 6 day weeks. i draw support from the fact that it's actually just 18 nights of 3 hour courses, but when i'm in the room with FOUR people in it and i can't even msn in peace, things get somewhat harder. yup.

crunkkkk

// his belated birthday dinner at brotzeit // yummy sausages! expensive but it was good stuff // gathering for cranial crunk christmas in conrad // our characters for cranium // aloy the scarecrow //

// jack i'm flyyinggg i'm flyinggg // the ice age rodent lives on in tris // the "brainy girls" clearly meeting some difficulty. again. // the guys' team // yingx3. i guess if you call your daughter something-ying, she'll prob turn out well //

// the roulette wheel of dooooom // pretty nighscape in the city // tortilla chips soaked in vodka. not the best combination but wayy better than overdoses of vodka blackcurrent // daryl getting high // big showings of love! //

// someone else not too receptive of the love // too smashed to care that a foot is in his face. well done kyle // ying taking care of her lightweight cheap drunk // pastor chan leading us in prayer (if cai quan is a form of prayer) // good night konged out //

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birthday season

// baking at ying's house. my fellow bakers poring over the recipe book // and we produced a yummy chocolate frosting coated raisin butter cake =) // baked macaroni and cheese pie. my first solo attempt at creating food. it was quite a feat that i produced something edible (though it was a little bland and starchy). well done Myself, i shall try again soon // the party that pet planned! some of the people who came to celebrate for khel // winnie boy bringing his mother's curry chicken to the party in a basket // our cake in candlelit glory, looking better than ever // happy birthday khel!! // the boys tormenting each other with beer torpedoes or something i.e. having beer forced down your throat // the ladies' (and) Man //

// celebrating ying's 22nd at Wisma's new Whisk cafe. very cat themed place // i take such flattering shots of my friends! no wait, i mean of course they're naturally pretty // the long lost nich and very late adrienne // happy birthday bimbs! // Whiskers //

SOOO... the latest financial scandal has erupted; a "well respected and much trusted" money manager has siphoned off $500 BILLION of guileless customers' money. dad is quite annoyed that his hedge fund has been trimmed since Britain's Man Holdings stuck their itchy fingers into that company and have lost big time. this financial turmoil is uncovering more skeletons in the closets day by day. wth, with a name like that, wasn't it kind of a no brainer that he would have MadeOff with the funds!?
my days have been... leisurely. shopping, meeting friends, eating at nice new places, vegging and feeling liberated from knowing that there's no case to read or tutorial to do. this will probably be my last slack holiday ever since next year's May-June vacation will be spent traversing the US. the days could be much better if not for the fact that i feel rather guilty for wasting my time away instead of earning my own keep. paradox. speaking of the US, there's now a brand new game online where the you can play the role of a certain head of state and duck flying footwear that come hurtling your way. wow, computer geeks are damn prompt. flee the footwear!!!, or if you'd rather whack the dog.

finally an update

OMG! i can finally blog! OK, even though its 3am, i shd post something in case this joy is short lived...
yep, i just got back from the party i planned for khel and i'm glad that everyone left full and "liquidated". they liked the cake that ying, sm and i baked, the food that people made/ bought was yummy, we critiqued and found flaws in the storyline of some HK show together, albert went on a crazy rampage making the k(h)elvins drink beer in some super quick mode; some people handled the mess better than others (pictures will reveal) and it was generally a good get together =) Christmas time is coming, which means the festive/ year end celebration, revelry and feasting will commence, which is not good for the exercise regime at all. but heck, the good times tip the opportunity cost scale conclusively.

now for some veryyyy overdue photos. blame vox for preventing me from blogging the past 2 weeks or so!

// eating at coca steamboat to celebrate the end of pressure cooker days. oh i am funny // gorgeous macaroons from wendy // feeding time // 7 dessert tapas from bakerzin // sharing the fats //

// group photo of the day // ying getting china girl bangs which she hated // ping's bday dinner at la nonna. wonderful pizza! // bday girl struggling to pop the champagne that the manager very kindly treated us to // ping n her girls //

goodbye halloween

before the exam month of november arrived, there was october, and before october ended there was halloween. and on halloween night, we went to show off our *amazing brainiac know-it-all* skills at the quiz at penny black. we won a whole lot of drinks (1x rose wine, 3x jugs of beer) and ordered some more, so that made for a high spirited night. hur hur. i'm glad to announce that both team N*US A and B trounced "the others" in the 1st 3 categories of alcohol, shopping and music; too bad we're not couch potatos or jocks so we lost out on tv and sports. it was more fun than the strait-laced thing i'd expected, and when our powers combine, we could actually answer some of the weirdest questions around! ok, rather fewwww la, but still, we did quite well.

// siewmen looking exceptionally pretty that night. i can't pinpoint why. shuddup it's not beer goggles // yelen and humsup kong // the poos and us // yalan with our prize for the half time challenge // the magic ticket! one of the many beer coupon prizes //

// we like rose wine // slow dancing in a burning room // aunt peggy mae with the prune face // the females // chug //

// the series of slutty Kris shots // wine hos // eeee... you so nautiiii // bitch fight // mannn this guy is weird // somebody give the man some buttons //

// the most originally named Team Nus B // denmark dreaming, reviving the alcohol // if i could be like that, i'd give anything. just to live one daaayy in the shoes // boat race reps. 4th out of 11th aint tooo bad // CHEERS!! (pls god pls god, i know this is my 4th beer, but if you keep me standing i'll be a good boy) //

// no costumes, just natural faces // all the pretty girls // not even a particularly nice toilet... // walking to clarke quay // not your typical thai lingering under lamp posts // tunnel of love //

the 2nd edition of gotham photos to be up next time.

friday night lives

our localised celebration of oktoberfest at kr50... for the poor post exchange guys, i'm sure this was but a mere shadow of the past, but well, beggers can't be chosers, especially pre-exam beggers.

// lotsa beer on tap, but i only liked the erdinger weiss // wendy pet and min // celebrate diversity in all shapes sizes and colors // in the midst of stuffing his face // the guys attacking the food with gusto, especially since we were the first guests to arrive //

// eating is a very exacting art // you're my wonderwall // hark who goes there // us again // kong starting to get tipsy not too late into the night //

// high, literally // a rather freaky art installation in the yong siew toh conservatory lobby // having some fun as the guys cowered by the sides // hello can you be my friend? // min // pet //

// wonder why we took such gender specific photos. hmmm no wait, there's a sistah in the guys' shot // wendy and her beer // candleburn // cheerios //

and then on halloween night, there was beer, wine, mirth and merriment again at the pub quiz. good stuff, especially since the booze is much sweeter when it's won and earned. clubbing with vampires, pharoahs, walking bedsheets, pale faced people with bad makeup made for an exciting night. the photos will come soon, but for now... i have to study for an exam in 5 days! fug.